visceralconnection replied to your post: I don’t feel like I can go home. I don’t feel at…

<3 Do you think it would help if you told her how you’re feeling? Or would that just make it worse

Unfortunately our trying to talk to each other at all always devolves into fights. We’ve never had a great relationship but since my mom died things have simply gotten worse. I used to say that I loved her because she was my sister but didn’t like to be around her, but now I can’t even say that. I do not like her anymore, for any reason. Being in the same room with her makes me tense and uncomfortable. I just don’t really want to try anymore. Even when I am nice things go wrong. It happens on both sides, I admit. I have my bad moments too. It will be a relief when I finally find some way to move away and I do not have to deal with her anymore. I used to want to have those kinds of close relationships that some sisters have, I’ve given up on that. Distance is all I want now. After 34 years of sisterhood I think it is clear the former will never happen.