2011 - A year to heal

It’s a year that I expected would be awful, especially after losing my mom in November of 2010 and not having a job. But a weird thing happened. 2011 became a year of healing. I did spend most of the first half of the year sitting on the couch depressed and watching every single episode of Criminal Minds made until that point, but I guess I needed to do that.

For a little more than a decade I have been struggling with depression. Whether complicated with family being ill and dying or having jobs where I was often treated as less than human (case in point: I actually had a boss who got mad at me for taking an on duty lunch break every night during my 9-12 hour graveyard shift. Apparently I was wasting his money taking a working lunch.) I have more than once contemplated driving my car into a tree at 65 miles per hour.

This year, however, I did not have a job and was able to take the time I needed to grieve and decide what to do next with my life.

I decided I wanted to write for television. It is not an new idea, I’ve written scripts off and on since middle school and have always preferred TV to movies. Plus I love writing dialogue and action, but not so much description: scripts require less description. I am excited at the prospect of pursuing this goal.

I also went back to school. When I first started college back in ‘92 I wanted to major in Mass Communications, but for reasons even I don’t remember it never happened. By this June I should have an AA in Mass Comm. (This means a lot more movie making and tech work than I am interested in, but oh well). I also discovered that I am a decent artist, especially with landscapes. That’s cool.

I feel a lot more optimistic for the upcoming year, than I did last year as I sat here on Tumblr trying to be ‘not miserable’. I am still concerned that I do not have a job, yet this is the first time I have attended college without working full time and I’ve really enjoyed the experience.

For the upcoming year there are a few things I’d like to accomplish.

Get my AA in Mass Comm

Write a lot more

Walk more (harder now that I do not have a class where I have to…so not an exerciser

Try for the Disney Fellowship for Writers

do ScriptFrenzy

Be a little better at housekeeping (don’t have to be spotless, just cleaner, less lazy)

Watch less TV

Crochet a granny square a day (Erica wants an aphgan)

Actually sell things from my Etsy Store (Never happened on the Artfire site)

And find a way to make a living

So there are some of my goals for the new year, there are probably more, I am always thinking up new things I want to try or do.

Have a happy new year to all my tumblr-mates!